Off Track and Out of Sync

I've been all off track and out of sync for a while now. I just didn't realize it. But last night it hit me. I've been just getting through the days one after another, in survival mode. It's not that I haven't been having fun with the kids and my friends here, I have. But, well, its been one thing after another and another. My routine has vanished. I'm struggling to take good care of myself. Don't worry, I'm taking care of the basics. But the extra stuff: to be gentle with myself, go the extra mile for my health and well being, those types of things have fallen off and gotten lost in the shuffle of surviving everyday life.

My work has been going well. I enjoy the people I work with very much. But I am working very hard both physically and mentally and my days are long and my body aches at the end of the week. I feel tired and decidedly un-enthusiastic in the mornings getting ready to go to work. Once I get started interacting with my patients my enthusiasm returns, but the tired lingers.

I am so very much enjoying the kids this year. They are each so unique, so interesting and so loving. I get to see them at least once a weekend. I play soccer with Richard, arts & crafts with Lucas and baby animals with Jacqueline. The time with the kids is very special to me. It replenishes me. It keeps me going.

I'm having a great time visiting with my friend Michelle. We get to see each other about every other weekend. It's great to have such a good friend here. She helps me remember to pamper myself and fully supports my efforts to make positive changes in my life.

So, its not all bad.There is lot's in my life that is good. But I'm still off track, and still out of sync. I'm hoping that simple realization is the first step to rectifying the situation. I'd like that alot.